|For the Record
||[Aug. 3rd, 2004|01:23 am]
|||||Death Cab for Cutie - Steadier Footing||]|
before anyone reads this, it is an accumulation of over a week's time and is very long. i'm sorry. time wasted cannot be recovered. you may want to skip this one.
i guess the first thing that happened since last time i posted was haley's visit. well haley came and stayed for the week. we had a good time, despite some shitty weather toward the end. the first day, her flight came in kinda late, so we just walked down to the beach, and had carini's for dinner. the next day we (haley) slept really really late :/ (she broke my record). we rented monster, which was really good, then we watched some seinfeld and stayed up for modest mouse on conan. the next day we drove up to atlantic city for the day. saw napoleon dynamite with one other person in the theatre hah. new jersey movie theatres leave a lot to be desired. we ate out at some restaurant that night back by the house, which i thought was really good. had to work the next day, my mom showed her cape may. went to the boardwalk for a bit and got some ice cream on the way back. it rained the next few days and we didn't do a whole lot. hah we rented 'fast times at ridgemont high' but i think i missed something. because the movie had no substance. i don't know, it seemed so lacking. we went to the beach the day after and made these really cool little heads out of sand. haley's was really good, but she broke it, so we made a body out of mine. hah, it had seaweed as hair and coal as a nose. it was so cool, i was proud. the last few nights we pretty much stayed in and rented movies or watched tv. haley had a pint of ice cream each night. 3 nights in a row. sooo hardcore. went to the boardwalk during the day in search of this brownie batter blizzard from dairy queen because it looked so good. but they didn't have it :<. we went to a few stores and haley bought some gifts for her family. haha, she bought this cat that looks sooooo real it's scary. she was holding it on the way out and like 3 people thought it was real. matt's letter came in the mail!!! oh man, it was so good to hear from him. i was overjoyed. i <3 matt. well, the bad news is i didn't get to teach haley to surf because i had work and we were out the first few days, then the weather sucked, and the one time we went to the beach, it wasn't a great day to learn. :<. next time. the good news is haley didn't get me on a roller coaster. hah, i'm such a wuss. i suck.
the waves that hit the coast the day after haley left were the biggest i've ever seen there my entire life, and probably the biggest the beach could handle without closing out. i went out in the morning at low tide and it was breaking really far out. 2 of the lifeguards and my friend shawn and i were all out. but it started to rain and the waves died down so we all came in. i went back later that day at about 3 and the waves were big to where it was scary, for me at least. there was a huge black cloud over the ocean too so that kinda added to it all. the faces of some of the set waves were taller than me though, so it was pretty big for new jersey. there were like 12 people out too, and were all screaming at the top of their lungs when they got a good ride, it was a great vibe.
i had my last day of work a few days after, that felt good. then my dad had his friend, and his wife and kid over for 2 nights. so that was ok. my dad and his friend got in a huge political argument after having a few too many. that was fun, i decided to leave the house so i went and played mini golf with jimmy.
friday i slept in and hung around the house most of the day, typical summer day. i didn't feel like surfing. at like 7, i randomly got the urge to go on a bike ride, so i went to sunset lake, and then rode back to our beach, and took some pretty cool pictures of the sunset. i was in an odd mood..i don't know what it was, but radiohead's - kid A seemed to fit it perfectly. i went home and chilled out for a bit. i talked to cody and matt on the phone for a long time, it was good to catch up with them.
on saturday, we drove up north for the day because we were going to go see how my grandma was doing (she had her 2nd stroke a week prior) she was recovering yet again even at the age of 93, but when we went to see her saturday...it was bad. i wish i hadn't. i would have rather remembered how she was before the 2nd stroke. but she was really barely hanging in there. she wasn't cognizant enough to know we were there. it was hard seeing her like that. i had to leave the room. that night, i went to my friend pete's house to stay over. it was awesome to see him again. the thing about pete is, i get to see him once or twice a year, but every time we see each other we pick up right where we left off, which is really cool. i've known him since kindergarten. hmm, so we hung out for a bit and got caught up on things. shared our situations i suppose. it's weird. he's going through a lot of the same exact things i am with friends/situations, just everything. we're always able to discuss things and help each other out even with virtually no knowledge of the problem. so yeah, we went down to the dollar store, and bought those little strawberry hard candies. i also bought a bob marley dvd for $1. it was a must. we then decided to drive by my old house :< as we were driving, i was pointing to this house where these really cool kids used to live, but there was some deuchebag in the driveway who thought i was pointing at him, so the whole time he watches us drive by. so i'm like "hey pete i think he just flipped us off" so pete put it in reverse and opened the sunroof and flipped him off. he was pretty upset about this. we went over to jeff's for a bit (another old friend i see every summer) and hung out for a while in his driveway, i got to see a lot of people ihadn't for such a long time. hahaha oh yeah, and we discovered that the kid we flipped off is this really scary kid. his nickname is maglite because he almost killed his girlfriends brother with a maglite. i guess he has a little anger problem. poor pete. he saw his car. he's screwed. hah. he had a bunch of people over his house. we went on the back deck and played some cards and listened to some music. i met some cool new people. it was too late to see a movie after, so pete jeff and i just went for a drive through mahwah. we went up to rio vista (this really vast housing community with enormous houses) and explored a bit. saw some houses that made the ones on black mountain look like shacks. we went up to "the top of the world" hah. hmm, then we wandered around a bit and eventually ended up at a diner. every time i hang out with pete and jeff, i end up laughing the whole time. something funny is bound to happen when we're together, i can't explain it. i got some fries and a huge brownie sunday. we got home at 2:30 and i don't really remember what we did. probably just ate and fell asleep. woke up at 2 something the next day. my parents called, and i got the news that my grandma had died. my parents picked me up like an hour later. my mom and i then drove all the way back down to the shore because we needed to get a few things. spent the night getting an early start on packing. woke up the next day to the worst thunderstorm i've ever been in. it sucked. i usually like thunderstorms, but i was going to surfing that morning, and then i couldn't sleep because of the thunder. but it was shaking the house and the storm was like right over us. so all the streets flooded again. hmm, i guess then we drove back up to north jersey to my grandma's place. my brother kelly, sister-in-law bente, sister-in-law monica, my nieces katelyn and lilly, and nephew kelly were all there already. we pretty much spent the whole day going through all of her stuff and putting it in boxes. it felt so weird. i don't know. it just doesn't feel right. i can't go through other people's stuff. the idea of 'claiming' someone else's property just because they've died seems absurd, but that's probably because i don't grasp death too well. despite the bad conditions, it was still good to see a lot of my family on such short notice (kelly and bente flew out from seattle that day). we all went out to eat at an italian place for dinner. tomorrow there are two wakes, and then the funeral is the next day. thursday, we drive back down to the shore and pack all day. and then friday morning we leave.
i don't know, this summer has gone by too fast. it seems that time accelerates as you get older.. next year is going to be very different. i'm already looking forward to next summer, but what comes after that i'd prefer not to think about. next summer we're planning on doing a small tour, then i'll be in NJ for a while, hopefully tara, matt, trev, cameron, haley, and whoever else can come and visit. then we're planning on going to italy and ireland for a few weeks. then off to college. i really need to make the best of next year. i don't know why kids are so eager to get through high school. you get this opportunity once in your life and then you're done. and you never realize what you have until it's gone. i'm really excited to see everybody again, i miss everyone :< i want to go out to california a lot next year. every 3day weekend. maybe even before school starts. and of course maybe next summer. i forgot to add that before. i really miss cave creek and i want to get back home, back in my own room. and i can't express how much i miss the band. i've realized how big a part of my life it is, and how much i rely on it for happiness. the first show back, i will be psyched. so i'll be home soon, but i'm sort of dreading the ride back though because 4 days in the car allows my mind to wander. sometimes thinking about things makes them worse. reading and music will distract me enough. matt's emails keep me sane. anyway, i apologize for the long post. i might update again thursday. but i just need to get through the next few days. <3.